~I Can Keep A Secret If You Can Keep Me Guessing

[SEAN JAMES NOVAK]

Dear Journal,

i really miss my home. the salty smell of the ocean breeze blowing through my hair. my parents smiling faces. but camp brook isnt all bad. i have made a few new friends. so i really hope that these wont leave me like my other ones did. but they also didnt like that i was a elf. it have nothing to do with my personality. they said it was nothing personal but thats bullshit we both know it. what could be more personal then hating me just because im a fucking elf? whatever. im done with them anyways. on to the bigger and better things. new adventures and people and places. its going to be great because i said it is. im getting back into my happy-go-lucky personality. which is good. i should be happy. i should be able to have some fun. florida was a great place to grow up but now it was time to grow apart. i will always love my parents but now i needed real friends. other people to talk to and such. so it was time to create my own adventures and fall in love. i had always heard that it was such a great feeling. love. but i had never really fallen in love whit anyone... yet. there has to be a girl out there for me. i know there is. and if not a girl then a sweet, cute boy would be just lovely as well. okay well thats all for now. so good night journal. till next time.

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[SEAN JAMES NOVAK]

Dear Journal,

so it turns out that im missing home less and less these days. its getting easier being away from home. nice almost. i have made s many new friends and i love them all. i havent really found anyone who i like any more then a friend. im not sure if im really looking either. i mean it would be great to have a boyfriend or even a girlfriend. but im still not sure if im ready for that. some days i feel so immature. still it would be nice. the rest if the camp is great though. i finally cleaned for the first time. i have clean clothes and a place to acutally walk around in. i dont know why i didnt do it before. like all the nights i was up. i dont know why i cant sleep. i think it might be a problem...? but i dont know. i dont really mind it any more either. i get to find these cool places and see what they look like in all times of the day. i used to hate the darkness. but now its really not so bad. i would never tell anyone this but it sometimes makes me feel like a dark elf. i find it kind of cool though. its not that i dont like being a light elf. i do. but its still pretty cool that i can feel like both now. CRAZY!! anyway i should do something and wear off some of the energy. till next time!

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